On the way back home from school listening to music, I began to thk of this...



Since the start of this year, many things have changed. People who were once distant to me I get along with them well/very well now, whereas some whom I get along very well/well with in the past has grown further away from me... What exactly is the reason??? I just want to know...but I guess mostly is because of me... some of you whom read this blog may think what I am writing are rubbish, but this are my personal opinions. * Some ppl will appear twice



Now: Considered Very well, compared to last time

Amanda - gossiping and other stuff..XD
Angela - helping me in times of need
Junxi - SRP, gossiping and his lame jokes..lolz
Shing Yi - 2007 chalet, SRP and his noisy but funny jokes..
Timothy - chairman - vice-chairman... * bo bien also have to work together..lolz! jkjk
Jian Kun - Designing of Class T-shirt
Shiuan Wen - gossiping
Alvin - SRP
Joel - SRP
Pearleen - CIP dance
Tasmann - conversation about his previous CCA
Justin - main reason huiling..lol



Now: Distant, compared to last time

PeiJun - lots of stuff...yea.
Yewrong - class T-shirt
Yongliang - class T-shirt
Timothy - cuz of me, i guess...lol
Shing Yi - supposedly 2008 class chalet
ZiHang - ever since I became class chairperson, last time drama still quite okay...
Geowynn - somehow just split
Cheng Yee - cuz of ~hem hem~
Jia Min - super obvious larh...
ZiYun - both of us, yea, apart now. ~Sometimes will nearly cry becuz of this....~





If all this hapeens just become I became the chairperson, I will gladly give up this seat to someone else. The burden and stress is too heavy to carry...


Every time I step into class, I will instantly feel very stressed, even if I was laughing and happily talking just few minutes ago. If the class does not agree with some of the things I do, I dun't blame them. Thing is, can you all just tell me directly? No need to say behind my back. Also, some things can be said out reasonably, but instead an arguement surfaced. Not once or twice le, but lots of times...


Being 2/4 0'8 class chairperson is really not easy...
Do I still have the means to carry on being one?
What does it take to be a good class chairperson?
Being class chairperson has a steep price to pay...pitting yourself against the class and losing your friends...
Sometimes I really feel left out and alone in the class. May be partly because of me, but is like...yea...I don't like like I am a part of the class at all, somehow just dun't seem to fit in...


You all see me like I can laugh at jokes, talk, gossip etc..
But do you all know deep down how I feel? Do you all really care?







Maybe not, for most of you think that I am very strong, and do not need care and attention. Thing is, everyone would wants to feel that they are not alone, but are together.





Dunno why I suddenly so emo today, but maybe its because all of these things I hav kept in my heart for so long, and I cant keep it any longer... 1:03:00 am