Yup. You name it.

My Sec 3 life like one whole big crap and nightmare, and it's not even half a year yet. (Kays, maybe gonna be in 2 months' time...)

My results is seriously crap. Like, WTH larh. I am still like last year, still studying, doing homework everyday, and sleeping even later than last year. But the results still like shit like that, especially Maths...=(

Have I lost my interest in studying? Guess not.

Have I been distracted away from my studies? Probably.

Alot of things to juggle nowadays. Yes, I know that I am not the only Sec 3 who feels stressed up. All Sec3s do.(Kays, MOST, not ALL.) Thing is, I am afraid, that if I keep up my current lifestyle with my super heavy workload to handle, I might break down sooner, rather than later.

Is it worth it? Does anyone appreciates me? Lolz. Dumb question, I know.

Still, everyone can afford to wonder if they are being cared for.

Yea, alot of people sees me as the kind who can handle both my studies, CCA, friendships etc super well. Thing is, I am not. I am not the super qiang person you all make me out to be. I am not the super responsible person you all make me out to be. I am not the super cold person that you all make me out to be.

All this I have to be, in order not to fall behind. Still, I really can't keep this up. Really feel like giving up...=(

Thanks to my various committments, have I neglected my friends? Have I abandoned them? Do they still treat me as a friend?

Seriously, I do not know. Some of my troubles might be caused by myself, but at least if there was a person somewhere whome I could relate to, maybe it wouldn't be this bad.

Problem: I have sealed the escape road myself. 10:55:00 pm